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I begin my journey as I lie in bed one night, complete normality. I’ve been living my life on an edge lately and I’
ve decided i need a change, I need something good in my life, something to look forward to. Because of these
reasons, i recently purchased an ounce of ’Magic Mushrooms,’ some may look down on it but it’s what i need in
my life. I am currently writing about my experiences as I hallucinate and simply trip out.
Something isn’t right about what I’m feeling, I feel almost out of place doing this. It could just be the amount I
took, the effect of the drug, or anything. But something isn’t right, something is way out of mind.
I’ve begun feeling an almost out of body experience, something is definitely going wrong. I can’t picture things
being like this. I need to get out, but my body won’t let me, I don’t even feel as if i’m writing anymore. I don’t
know how long i’ll last...
I’ve escaped reality and landed in purgatory, a place where the dew of guilt washes off the stain of sin and girds
the spirit with humility. I don’t know how long i’ll be here but i’m sure it’ll be a while. But for some reason, nothing
that can make sense in my mind, i feel like repenting is necessary and to explain myself right now, so here we
go.
I’ll start off, I’m the one who never wanted to do anything wrong in life. I always wanted to be something special,
set an example for any one else who wasn’t me. Stay away from drugs, and violence, and everything that’s
looked down at in society.
But it was always about decisions. Most of which can be directly related to my past, from my childhood, thru my
teens, all the way up to my final excuse of an explanation (which I believe I am currently writing to you from).
But everything I’ve done, I’ve done thru mine own fault. No one else’s choices, no one else’s dreams. Just
everything I’ve ever wanted my life to be and less.
I am sorry for my sins, I only repent because I feel like this place could be my new beginning, or maybe even my
final place. I’ve stared doom and damnation right in the face and held for mine own to get here so i’ll be
damned if I lose yet! I will find where I finally belong, this is where i come to peace!
I am over thrown by complete happiness as I begin to notice other people gathered around me all pacing in one
single direction. I look to the person next to me, and I notice the tremendous happiness he displays as he
waves in my direction. I wave back but my hand feels weird. I notice my motions are not right, and I begin to
think that if the man i was waving at would be angered if he wasn’t completely happy. None the less he begins
to speed up, either from being pissed at me or being overjoyed and having no control over his body. But I
notice as he walks away that it appears the back of his head is now his face. But his face is completely
distorted, and his eyes are a dark blood red. The white in his eyes has been replaced with complete darkness. I
feel an over whelming weight on my shoulders as i crumble to my hands and knees. I begin to notice the green
ground below me swirl in every which way and direction, it seems as though my hands are sinking thru the
ground. I can barely comprehend what is happening before i completely black out.
I begin to open my eyes. I look up at the bright blue sky, filled with clouds and birds. I begin to move my hands
very slow like. I hoist myself onto my ass as I look around.
I am in the middle of a green field. There is every animal imaginable right in front of me, birds, lions, giraffes,
rhinos, and other people.
I believe I’ve found my way into limbo, a place of sorrow without torment, a place i would have never imagined to
be so pure.
There is plenty of warmth and comfort, though for some reason I feel an almost unforgiving and merciless
sadness. Like a plague the sorrow engulfs me, and I am filled with a complete depression and almost have the
yearning to give up and just die where I stand. But I notice across the field there are children running, skipping,
being marry.
But across the way I also see, what at first appears to be simple old men. But as i squint in that direction i notice
that they are actually deformed and mutated creatures, I can not believe the horrors I witness. I see what seems
to be men, simple as pure human beings, deformed into hideous creatures of wicked proportions. Gray and
blue bodies, with a red skull covered in light yellow hair. I stare at these horrible creations in absolute pity for
myself and every human being I’ve ever encountered before. How could something so pure and simple turn so
wicked. Could it be the constant curse of never seeing a final resting place, neither heaven nor hell welcomes
them. So for that reason they have evolved into an ever lasting creature so hideous they want nothing to do in
live but just die. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.
I can not give up there’s more to see, I do not belong here......
I think I‘m in a new place, it’s hard to tell what happened because i am gloomed with absolutely no light, where
the wind bellows as the sea does in a tempest.
There is an overtone of pure shrieks and yelps as I can sense human beings tormented as not so far away . I
begin to feel my way around the dark cavern, I sense a breeze blowing against my back. The more i walk with
the wind to my back the heavier the wind becomes, it’s almost to the point where I can’t even walk now. The
wind is sweeping me off my feet, SHIT! I am completely floating fast towards no particular direction, but the
farther I float the more intense the screams become. I am blown around endlessly by the unforgiving winds.
The horribly wicked screams of pain, hell, and damnation. If only they would stop ringing in my ears. I begin to
see outlines of other people, whirling around me in a cyclone. They move so fast, they all just seem to be one
big blur. The awful screams are enough to make a man kill himself. I scream at the top of my lungs, but nothing
comes out.
I remove my hands from my ears, and hear nothing. I then open my eyes, i thought they were open the whole
time. I see more darkness, not as dark as before, but dark enough. I realize I’m lying on my back in what
appears to be water. But with further inspection it appears that i am lying in the filthy mixture of shadows and of
putrid water. My arms and legs are completely sunken into it to the point i can’t even twitch enough to wiggle
free.
But some how my neck and head remain free. I lift my head out of the ground to look around. I notice that I am
amidst eternal rain, maledict, cold, and heavy. I can barely see an inch in front of my nose it’s so thick and
intense. The smell is the worst part, it reeks like shit, mud, blood, and piss. And the rain is so cold i’m afraid i’ll
die of hypothermia if i don’t get out of here soon.
Out of the corner of my eye I catch a glimpse of a figure that seems to be almost dog like in a way. I hear a
mean and awful growl as I see the figure strike it’s head forward. I gain enough strength to peer in the direction,
soon enough to see a horrible sight.
I see another helpless human like myself lying on his back, I hear a horrible shriek and notice that the dog has
bitten into the man’s skull. He growls and tears at the damned with his teeth and claws.
The blood and brain trickles in between the monster’s teeth as he withdraws his head for another bite. But this
time it’s a second head, a two headed dog! This time the head withdraws a part of the man’s abdomen, then
again another head strikes forward on the helpless man, this time withdrawing a part of his throat, a fatal bite
that would kill any man.
But yet the man’s screams continue, he is neglecting a head, throat, abdomen, and other unmentionables, but
yet he retains enough life to still scream in pain. How can this be? I look around and see other disfigured
human bodies, most of which share the same wounds. But yet all of them still scream in anger, pain, and pity.
How can this be? Do they not die?
Then as in terror I examine the three headed dog and notice that each dog has blood red eyes, the white of
their eyes as well as the man in purgatory has been replaced with darkness. Almost dark enough that you can
see forever into them it seems.
The three heads, still munching on their snack, claw and play with the dead parts they chewed off. One head
turns in my direction and sniffs. The two others turn to see my head sticking up from the ground. This can not
be good. I try helplessly to break free from the muck but little happens. So I scream, a scream i’ve heard
before. It’s the same scream I hear from all the other lifeless but still living bodies. I open my eyes two see the
three heads peering down at my bodily mercilessly. The best and only solution that comes to my head is to
close my eyes. But not in time to witness the claws of the beast pounce on my body.
I open my eyes and am welcomed into a cave. I quickly realize that I am surrounded by action. As I am hurriedly
pushed into the back of a man in front of me. I am shortly stunned, but still pressured into the man in front of
me. These men are tired and wretched, the smell of sweet fills my lungs as I begin to gag in disgust. These men
are covered in dirt, mud, rain, and piss.
I notice that all these men are in a giant line pushing on each man in front of them. It is all just one line pushing
at a huge round object, a giant boulder or maybe even a weight. But I also notice across from this boulder are
more men pushing at a boulder on the opposite side. They roll weights back and forth against one another. As
each boulder strikes one side yells, “Why do you horde?” The other, “Why do you waste?”
Then I quickly snap my head to the side of me to notice a giant beast strike my entire body with it’s snout. I am
violently flung to the side where I come to much less of a nice landing. The creature jumped with incredible
height and landed right over my helpless and numb body. The blow had taken the breath away from me, I know
this because any human that caught sight of this beast would have screamed every scream he possessed.
This horrible creature stood at least 30 feet tall, had four legs, pointy wolf like ears, covered in
gray/bloodstained fur, and dripped a horrible smelling saliva from it’s mouth. But the eyes again were blood red,
and surrounded by pitch black. This time the beast was close enough that i could see my reflection in it’s eyes.
But then the creature began to change it’s shape. It’s ears began to increase and decrease, as it’s mouth kept
snarling and licking it’s lips. And the black of the monsters eyes kept turning into an almost yellowish color. At
this sight I lost my mind, I could now scream, which I did, and somehow I could now get up and run, which i more
than happily did. I kept running but it seemed that i was running in no particular direction, not at any particular
speed. But i knew I was running away from whatever the fuck that thing was. I looked up and saw at first
appeared to be the roof falling down on me but looking away I noticed that it was the roof falling on me...
I open my eyes once again, and notice there is no roof directly above my head. Somehow once again I escaped
near death.
I begin to ponder the scenery as I am at the edge of a river, but the water of this river is made of what seems to
be boiling blood. There is hints of yellow but i can’t really be sure what that is. I look across the river and I see
two men. One man has a chain around his neck, the chain is connected to a giant boulder directly in back of
him, the man across from him is also chained to a giant boulder in back of him. Both boulders are about 5 feet
apart from each other, and the chains are about 2 feet long, just long enough for the men to scratch at each
others throats. Something which didn’t seem to dangerous from far away. But as I looked closely I noticed both
were sporadically and aggressively attacking each other, with more power and anger I have ever seen
displayed in any fight in my entire life. This was not just a fight this was torture. I can imagine that both men can
not die as well with the others in the mud that were attacked by the dog. These men were the damned sent
here to torture each other for all of eternity.
I lose interest, more or less because of disgust, and look around for more fascinating scenes. I notice that there
are hundreds of these boulders, all of them are forever lashing out at each other in anger, furious and naked,
tearing each other piecemeal with their teeth. Most of which are very badly scared and red with blood. It is a
horrible sight as anyone could imagine seeing hundreds of men in full on combat to the death for all of eternity.
I notice that in the water there also float bodies, gurgling in the boiling blood, slothful and sullen, withdrawn from
the world. Weather they were alive or dead was something I could not decipher, but bodies none the less.
Some were floating up right with their heads to the ceiling, while others floated face first in the puke of water, I
could imagine they were alive to and this was their punishment. Their lamentations bubble to the surface as
they try to repeat a doleful hymn, though with unbroken words they cannot say it. I see one man with tears of
blood drenching down his cheeks, there are giant nail marks running down his chest about an inch thick each.
I feel a cold object around my neck, I give it a good feel and stunned I notice a metal, rusty, and cold leash tied
to me. I turn around and see that I’m connected to a giant boulder. How can this be happening? I am so sick
that I attempt to fall to my knees, but the chain keeps me only 2 inches from the ground. A quick jerk of the
chain knocks the wind out of me and gives me a wicked whiplash. I straighten myself upright, and find myself
face to face with another man. His face is covered in sweat and blood, he has a bald head, he has fierce eyes
that have the look of death in them. He’s so close to my face I can see my reflection in his blood shot eyes.
His face becomes distorted and snarls at me as I quickly duck my head to dodge an incoming punch. This man
is after me. It’s just like the others here. Why is this happening? I dodge two more violent and fierce punches,
but the third hits me square in the jaw. The look in this man’s eyes is almost too much to bare. I stand and face
this man. He shows no mercy as he lies two more punches in my gut, I feel a sharp prickle on my skull as I pull
back in disbelief. He just bit me! I can not control my anger now, i’ve never felt this angry before. I feel every
little endorphin in my body swimming in the opposite direction of happiness. It sends me into a pure anger
frenzy. I start throwing punches like mad at this man. Two to the face, five in the stomach, then one punch with
all my might right into the bottom of the man’s jaw. His head flings back in pain, I hear him yelp in astonishment.
I look at my knuckles and notice they are drenched in blood. The blood trickling down from my scalp forms at
my brow then drips into my eyes. I feel no pain though. I begin to feel dizzy, so dizzy I barely notice the man’s
next fifteen punches. I don’t even think about pain, I just begin to look at the ground and zone off, completely.
I feel a throbbing pain sink into my throat. I quickly snap out of my trans to find the mans fangs right in my
jugular. I look to the ceiling in agonizing pain, and wish this would all go away.
I take my eyes away from the sky and onto a giant plain. A plain that stretches on as far as the eyes can see.
Except I see giant iron walls. The fields are filled with tormented bodies. Burning tombs are littered about the
landscape, and the horrible shrieks come from within. I don’t dare go near the tombs, I can only begin to
imagine what i’ll find. But some how my legs move me towards them. I try to say no, but there’s nothing left of
consciousness any more. As I become closer I notice that from within the tombs there are actual people, though
just faint images I can hear them make themselves audible by doleful sighs.
I am brushed by a figure and turn quickly. There on a tomb stand three women like creatures. They have
bodies of women but snakes for hair. There razor sharp teeth hit me hard mentally, if not by their yellow eyes.
At this site I assume I trip out, I cannot be sure anymore. The hair of the women move rapidly in waves, if not in
circles. They begin to engulf each other as they spew fire out behind themselves. The woman stand there
holding hands, singing softly. I am taken into a trance. I cannot look away from their horrible eyes. I begin to
feel quite soft and mellow, almost like i’m floating...
I awaken with sudden shock as i sit up right. I look around and find myself in no place better than the last. I am
on what appears to be a plateau of some kind, and it is surrounded in a circle by a river. I am quickly taken
back by the smell of blood. I notice that the river shares some resemblance to that of lava, as it is boiling the
same way. I begin to think that this river is made of entirely boiling blood but that cannot be. Can it? The stench
here is overpowering. I quickly, if not too fast, stood up. I turned around and found myself underneath the legs
of a bull. I looked up towards the sky and saw the body of a human being. But the face of this creature took all
other aspects away from it. It had a snarling snout that dripped blood from underneath it where i assume the
mouth was. It had bull ears and hair that most likely fit a bull. But the eyes were most human like, as well as the
abdomen and arms. The eyes were stained blood and black. The beast had huge hands, enough to most likely
crush me if he damn well pleased.
The beast looked at me and snarled in my face, this was enough motivation to get me to turn around and run.
As I did so I felt an sharp object thrust through my chest, I looked down and quenched when I saw an arrow
head poking through my heart. I quickly looked over my shoulder and say three men with bows and arrows. But
the men had horse like characteristics. They had horse legs. I couldn’t take this any more I ran to the edge of
the river took one look behind me and jumped in.
When I got to the other side of the shore i hoisted myself to land. I quickly stood up and still ran, ran as fast as i
felt i could. I closed my eyes and went into a full on sprint. I didn’t care where I was going, I’ve had enough of
this trip. I can’t take anymore half bull half men, or half horses half men. I just need to get out.
I ran till I collapsed, moments later I opened my eyes. I notice there is something around my neck, some kind of
rope. I sober myself up enough to force my arms up to investigate. I feel around my neck and directly above
that I feel more rope. I have a noose around my throat. I look around puzzled and worried as I scream as much
as the suffocation would allow. I saw I was hanging from a tree, there were other trees all around me, hundreds
if not millions of trees. Trees that reached miles over head. Stunted and gnarled trees with twisting branches
and poisoned fruit. The smell was even more retched over here. I reeked of dead bodies and fresh blood. As I
looked closely at my surrounding tress, I notice that from the tree limbs hang dead bodies. These bodies stare
at me as I swing helplessly in the breeze, their oh so watchful eyes i couldn’t bare.
I heard a bellowing screech, almost bird like, from over the way. I turned in that direction only expecting the
worse. I saw a bird creature as big as an airplane swoop down from the sky, so swift I felt like I was doomed.
The bird swooped down to a tree near by but not very close. The bird hovered in front of another man hanging
helplessly, then with it’s legs stabbed the man in the stomach. The man looked to the sky and screamed his
loudest scream, on filled with pain, horror, and anguish. Nothing like any scream before. This man might
actually die, I assume. The bird then retreated its’ talon’s and pulled away his insides. I saw most of what looked
like his rip cage, and other parts as well dangling helplessly. The bird then rested its’ feet above the man’s
shoulders, stuck its’ ass right in the empty space and gave another screech. It then released its’ grip and flew
into the sky. I looked at the man in pure horror as I saw what looked like eggs inside of the mans empty
abdomen. That sight made me sick to my stomach, I felt the erg to throw up, but held it back, probably just
because i knew nothing would come out with a noose around my neck.
I felt a breeze from above my head, I couldn’t look upwards because of the rope. But in the next instant I was
faced by a man. A man with red eyes surrounded bye black. The man had white hair and a dark complexion. He
began to drift upwards and I was now facing two huge talons. This man was one of the birds I saw. Then the
talons were thrusted into my stomach, this pain was the worst as of yet. I looked away and up to the sky and
say a glimpse of light shining thru. I knew what the bird man was doing so i restrained form looking, i just kept
staring at the light shining thru the trees, it was the first time i felt peaceful in a while. I saw the bird fly thru the
trees where I was looking and only hoped there was no more to see. But for some reason I looked at my
stomach, saw three eggs implanted into my abdomen and fainted...
I awoke suddenly and felt as if I were on fire. I glanced to each side of me and up above I notice red flakes of
fire falling from the sky as if it were snowing. An assortment of ash, coal, and flint litter my body and all around
me. The scouring pain i feel is immense as the burning flames fall allover my naked body. Oh the fucking pain. I
see out of the corner of my eye, other helpless souls just lying in the same case i partake in. Oh what torture
this is, I lay completely flat on my back spread eagle, my back is set to flames as well as I am lying on burning
sand. My eyelashes are synched off as well as my hair on my scalp, as well as my pubic region goes up in
flames.
My entire body begins to cook in boil in the pain and agony. A line of naked souls pass directly in back of me.
Running, screaming, how they are tortured. Oh what pain and suffering is this? My eyelids begin to cook and
scold. To the point of which my eyes begin to water. A sight so cruel i see, so heartless and pain full to even
imagine. My tears, from my burning eye, begin to turn to smoke as the burning heat touches, i am not even
allowed to comfort of tears...
A pit, one would imagine as a barricade used during the war to defend soldiers life's, was this that I befall into.
So deep and dark it is. I feel other naked souls running about me, hundreds if not millions of naked souls. I feel
a hard whiplash strike the soul of my back. I yelp in pain as I hear a voice shout to me, “Keep moving you pimp,
there are no women to sell here!” I look towards this threatening voice.
A giant two legged monster holds a giant bull whip in his possession. How hideous this beast is. So striking and
terrifying. He features two bull like legs and horns for ears. Two red eyes with black souls. This is half a man!
Another strike on my naked back. Oh the fucking pain! I spot three more of these beasts.
They are whipping all these pour souls into a frantic never ending run. It bodies on top of bodies scrambling to
get to the edge, but having nothing to get there with. And the ever constant lashings of the merciless beasts.
Oh what hell bestows me. Can the mind even imagine the hideousness and unforgiving kind of such torture.
Another lashing right in my eye. The blood tears ran down my scared face...
Cold ice cavern made a perfect grave for me when I came to. Completely surrounded by ice from the neck
down. The freezing cold blizzard of ice froze me to the bone. I could tell that my bones would be shivering if only
the solid ice would allow me. I can barely describe the numbness of freezing ice that engulfed my entire body,
word biding me.
In front of me was a hideous sight, two men frozen to their necks in the ice, one man was gnawing at the others
nape. The blood and gore smothered his face as he chewed mercilessly at the man’s already half eaten head.
Other bodies lie face down with only their backs submerged from the ice. How horrible a punishment these
tormented people endure. Hundreds of bodies lie completely under the frozen thick ice.
The ice is thicker than any other could imagine. Hundreds of years of frozen winds and rain cannot come close
to the thickness of this ice, nor the temperature.
A giant creature protrudes beyond all belief on all counts of ever there being such a beast. One so erect and
massive that it drew me to it. I was walking across the ice closer and closer, and as I did I felt a cool cold breeze
against my face. But it only got stronger and worse the closer I approached. The cold and frigid wind sent me
into a frantic shiver. A shiver that shook my entire body all the way through my soul.
Do not ask, Reader, how my blood ran cold and my voice choked up with fear. I cannot write it: this is a terror
that cannot be told. A giant monster cold with pain and suffer, winged with cold. Wings that forever blew an
eternal wind upon this frozen land. A beast that displayed three horrible faces, one above the chest, and two
directly above each shoulder. Each faced marked by different colors. Horns as fierce and sharp more than any
other possible conceived, even to the imagination.
I drew close to the bank at which was where the monster drew. I did not die, and yet I lost life’s breath. Imagine
for yourself what I became, deprived at once of both my life and death. Protruding out of each mouth was a
man. One man for each head. Down each chin of this monster ran blood, gore, and puss. Tears escaped this
pathetic beasts eyes and ran blood red. This monster had blue eyes with white outside. The monster struck it
wings fiercely.
As I noticed that in each mouth, a man being gnawed at and chewed for all eternity, I grew and overcame an
intense pity for that lack of man. How sad and sick such a sight could be on the human eyes. I feel to my knees
in pity and shame. Tears of red streaked down my face. I wanted nothing more than to die right now and here...
take me in your mouth then if its what would do! I feel to my back and looked towards the sky, and noticed the
sun was setting beneath the stars.
Till then I recede you my friend, good bye and good luck in life!
Yours to meet......